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Peanut Butter Lover

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In my old life I used to sneak peanut butter.  A spoon full here or there when no one was looking and sometimes much more than that. Who was I hiding from you ask?? Myself. Thats right..my natzi self. Eating peanut butter was something I considered cheating and sinful. It felt like I was breaking a rule that stated peanut butter was the devil and when I partooke I would be damned to hell….or at least it left me feeling that way afterwards.  As quilty as I felt, and as much punishment as I put myself through after eating it, i’d always end up eating it again.  I remember watching my sister eat  peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for breakfast. She had no worry or guilt and was definitely not sneaking it.  The peanut butter sandwich was not her guilty pleasure but instead her breakfast of choice. She would always follow it up with a big glass of milk, and as I watched her I envied her guiltless conscience.  Why couldn’t I dig in to the peanut butter jar and feel no guilt?  The answer is simple.  I WAS CRAZY.  🙂 ok just kidding…not crazy, but seriously confused.  Lets take a look at the nutrional value of Peanut butter:

                                           Peanut Butter Nutritional Info

 Check out this article about healthy benefits of boiled peanuts…aka peanut butter.

So here are the facts: 190 calories for 2 tbs of Peanut Butter.  16 grams of fat. 8 grams of Protein. 3 grams of sugar. Eating 190 of my precious calories on Peanut Butter seemed INSANE.  It’s easy to understand my logic when you realize I was restricting my diet to 1000 calories or less (most times less). In my world after a couple spoon fulls of peanut butter you have eaten more than half of your allotted calories for the day.  I believe this is why I labeled Peanut Butter as a “bad” food.

When I began my journey to a healthy life there were so many things I had to change.  I’ve taken it step by step and conquered one thing at a time.  Changing the way I think about food… “good” food and “bad” food was one of those changes.  I did a lot of  reading, thinking, and talking with friends and family. I began to better understand how to have a normal relationship with food.  NO FOOD IS BAD FOOD.  Fat free mayo is not “good” and Regular mayo “bad”… low calorie bread is not “good” and regular bread “bad”….neither one is “good” or “bad”.  Eating, although pleasurable is really about fueling our body’s.  Making healthy moderate food choices can help fuel our body’s and give us the energy we need to live healthy lives.  I have learned that moderation is the key.  Through trial and error, prayers, motivational talks from my husband and through a lot of determination, I actually feel in control with my food choices and am proud of my progress. 

Just for fun… Here are a few things related to my food choices and thoughts that a year ago I would have never thought I could do….(without feeling guilt)

  • If I want regular mayo on my sandwich then dog gonitt i’m going to have it. 
  • If I decide that I like regular bread instead of diet calorie bread because it taste better and has more nutrients I’m going to have it. 
  • If I want a cookie or a piece of cake i’m going to eat it.
  • And last but certainly not least….If I want to eat peanut butter everyday then I will and I’ll feel great about it.

That guilt that I used to feel is gone.  I realized that peanut butter is not “bad” for me when eaten in moderation.  Although I could easily help my self to the entire jar, a spoon full or two each day is perfectly fine. Infact, since I have changed my behaviors and let myself eat the things I enjoy (which also include a plethora of healthy and nutritional foods) I have actually lost weight.  Although losing weight is not my goal, it happened.  Slowly my body has started to accepted the changes I have made and is loving my new healthy choices. It appreciates the extra protein it gets, and the rich nutrients it receives through eating yummy fruits and veggies. It loves the carbs I give it that allow it to fuel through a hard workout among other things.  Ironic as it may be, eating a healthy moderate diet has not only benefited my mind and spirit but my waist line!  Who knew!  (everyone but me obviously!?)

Through this process I have had many triumphs both small and large.  Last night as I read my emails with a spoon of peanut butter in hand, I realized that I felt no guilt eating it . None what so ever. Guilelessly eating peanut butter is a huge triumph for me. In conculstion….I am a peanut butter lover who loves peanut butter and I’m proud of it! Woo HOO!

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  1. September 10, 2009 at 9:50 am

    Thanks for stopping by my blog! I think you’re definitely right, moderation is the key. I’m a peanut butter-lover too, and I recently discovered Smucker’s natural peanut butter…so delicious!

  2. Shelly Belly
    September 10, 2009 at 2:01 pm

    Oh man, those were the days when I could eat a PBJ and not feel guilty. I remember them well. I feel bad now because I know if I eat them all the time it will have a negative effect but I do allow myslef to have one every now and then and I really enjoy it when I do! I try really hard not to “limit” myself because I eat better and make better choices when I am not restricting myself. Great post! Peanut butter is yummy!

    • nataliekshaw
      September 10, 2009 at 3:15 pm

      You still can silly. You are loving crossfit and kicking your butt doing it. I’m so excited you love it!! It’s all about moderation…you know this obviously. Keep up what you are doing you rock sista!

  3. September 10, 2009 at 4:36 pm

    Thanks so much for stopping by my blog! I used to sneak spoonfuls of peanut butter too…and I, too, was hiding from myself. So silly. PB is one of the best foods on earth – seriously! Moderation is key, just as you’ve said.

  4. September 11, 2009 at 11:29 am

    Peanut butter is one of my weaknesses, but you’re right…in moderation. I’ve know that a lot of people go all natural or organic with it, but I just stick with Skippy. 🙂

    Loving your blog! 🙂

  5. September 15, 2009 at 1:02 pm

    I am so happy to have had your blog. It’s funny, peanut butter was always huge in my house growing up, and when I was a teenager and became restrictive in my eating it was one of those things I wouldn’t touch. Since then I still binge on it guiltily. Sometimes I eat it openly but usually it is more secretively and I find that so absurd. I am getting better with fearing high calorie foods and eat a lot of nuts and avocados, two things I would never touch before.

    Your honesty is so heartwarming and I am happy to read your writing. Thank you.

    • nataliekshaw
      September 15, 2009 at 2:50 pm

      Gillian,
      Thanks for your comments! I read through your blog a little bit, you are a great writer! I love the way your blog looks too…its so pretty! Its funny that you talk about nuts and avacados…those are a few things I would have never touched before either! Keep up the great work…sometimes deciding to change is the hardest part of the change!! 🙂

  6. September 15, 2009 at 1:02 pm

    Thanks for stopping by my blog!! I’m happy you’ve learned to love PB–it’s the healthiest, most delicious addiction to be BLESSED with 🙂

    Look forward to reading more!

  7. April (Foods of April)
    September 16, 2009 at 1:50 pm

    Thanks for visiting my blog! I love peanut butter.. in fact I normally consume 2-3 tbsp of it per day! And my body fat is fairly low.. so it’s proof that it won’t hurt! 🙂

    http://ajangel25.wordpress.com

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